24

I’m only 23 for another hour give or take,
I’m not a sinner or a preacher
So promise me only one thing, would you?
Just don’t ever make me promises
No promises, no promises

The above lyrics are a medley from the song Promises by Incubus. I’m 24 on Monday, with a lot on my mind. I’m not sure I’m as happy as I should have wanted to be. I have realized a lot of things. I’ll share those which my thoughts can allow to be stringed into words, those that form and perhaps a conclusion.

The quarter-life crisis is real. This is the point in life you are struggling to make something of your degree, your career, your business, your hustling, perhaps your relationships. You try to define yourself, yet society may have other expectations. Family has its pressures.

It's been 24 years

I have realized it is never about you. The decisions you make are hard to make only because you have to think of other people. If it was about you, you’d do what’s best for you, screw everyone else. But your friends, your colleagues, society, family.. they matter. That is why you choose to do that 8-5 job than pursue that risky career whose rewards may never be, but it will make you truly happy. However happy it may make you, bills have to be paid and so jobs have to be done.

I have realized it’s very easy to lose sight of the goals. It is easy to fall by the wayside. All it takes is that one time, that first time… it’s easier to do something wrong the second time, the third time.. sooner or later the guilty conscience is buried further away, and you’re drowning in your vices.

I have realized time and distance will cost you friendships. Relationships.

I have realized that though I may not have achieved whatever I wanted to by this age, God knows what that is, I shall be satisfied with what I have done so far. I got my first class bragging rights – as you can see, it’s almost a year later and I haven’t forgotten about it! I got a scholarship to do my masters in Kenya’s best IT university- Strathmore. I have Paul Kagame and Bob Collymore on speed dial. Okay, I kid. I have girls, teachers of girls and other people emailing me telling me I have inspired them, that I’m an encouragement to all the women starting out in technology and sciences in general. Sometimes I think that maybe I don’t deserve to be their inspiration, that my life is pretty mundane. Then other times I think these people who look up to me help keep me on my toes. I have to clean up my act, and maintain it. I have to keep my dreams alive.

I have realized that being a hero is not about thinking of what’s best for you. It’s about sacrifice. It is about others. It is not having the perfect life: you could hardly envy Nelson Mandela’s earlier life(27 years in prison! I’m not even 27 yet!), or Wangari Maathai’s, much less Mother Teresa’s. It’s about living your life for the good of others. Your purpose in life is to make life better for all those around you. For the whole world. I find this a worthy reason to get out of bed every day. Do you want to know my dream? Click that link.. he he I won’t make it easier for you!

So yeah, I’m still on Feetsubishi, sometimes Shoebaru… I’m still living in my parent’s house, still send please-call-me’s on occasion, still have to call on my friends to bail me out, still walking around with my backpack, still sitting in class listening to lecturers, still chasing after the shadows of relationships hoping to find the one, still doing that job whose payment comes a month late….. BUT I have every reason to smile. Every reason to wake up and chase after my dream. I have my friends, my family. I’m alive and I have been given another chance to be awesome.

Happy 24th birthday to me!

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This Friday night, I’m off to coast to watch AFC Leopards beat Tusker FC at Mbaraki Stadium in Mombasa tomorrow at 3pm. Even a leopard drinks Tusker sometimes!

  • http://ourkidbert.blogspot.com/ Our Kid

    Beautifully written.

    24, huh? During my time, the then inspirational song was Coolio’s ‘Gangstas Paradise’ where he sang ‘I am 23 now but wilkl i live to see 24… the ways things are going I don’t know!’

    Life promises so many things with its unpredictability and just like football, you never know!

    • savvykenya

      Yeah you never know.. I also like those particular lines: I’m 23 now but will I live to see 24?

  • Ymutua

    I love the way you tell your stories. You are not an inspiration to women only but to men also – few will admit that. Happy Birthday.

    • savvykenya

      Thank you Mutua! I’ll keep that in mind!

  • Shiko-Msa

    Happy Birthday lil sis. Hope to see you when you come down kesho.

    • savvykenya

      Alright, I will call you tomorrow! Do you live on the island or North coast?

      • savvykenya

        Do you want to come for the game?

      • Shiko-Msa

        North Coast. Sorry for late reply.

  • Kennethmwendah

    H.B.D

    • savvykenya

      It’s not until Monday, but thanks!

  • Sybella

    Happy Birthday Savvy!

    • savvykenya

      Thanks Sy! Been a while since I visited your blog!

  • http://reflectionsanddeflections.blogspot.com/ Otienohongo

    24 is such a good year to be! Happy birthday and hope you will go places!!

    • savvykenya

      Thanks OO!

  • Joy

    ..i think you are 24 going on 42,the way with your words!!!happy birthday. I could pick a few thoughts on following my dreams and goals without a care in the world,i think life would be easier because i would be doing exactly what i want…then again id still want approval from someone,and the cycle continue

    • savvykenya

      We always seek approval because we are social beings, we want to be accepted..

  • Mackel9

    Happy belated birthday Savvy, at least you have found your purpose before the quarter century minus one and that is reason en0ugh to celebrate…

    • savvykenya

      Thanks! Quarter century, huh? Makes me feel old!

  • http://Www.cesily.wordpress.com/ Cesky cess

    We might not be where we would have wanted to be, but we’re on our way there. I like the way u first counted your blessings. All the best.

    • savvykenya

      Thanks Cess! We should meet again..!